Quickly going over why I feel like I'm in a terrible spot right now and I'm seriously scared

• Due to the ear infection/swelling I've talked about before, I've been in constant pain for the past few days, only dulled by ridiculous combinations of ibuprofen and acetaminophen at almost the maximum daily doses for each of them

• Similarly for the past week I've had constant tinnitus in my right ear, possibly but not guaranteed to be related because this started before the swelling did; said tinnitus is actually louder than the white noise that the fan in my room generates, and has come along with difficulty hearing in my right ear

• Due to the combination of non-24, insomnia, light sleep, and non-responsiveness to sleeping medications that are innate problems I've been dealing with as long as I can remember, together with the two above points, I have not been able to actually sleep without crashing from exhaustion for the past week or so

• Due to the above, and added pain from wearing a headset, I essentially cannot do my job which requires me to do so for eight hours a (work)day

• But since I just transitioned to full-time, I have literally zero recourse, zero sick hours and zero vacation. I thus feel forced to do something, even though I also feel I physically cannot

• I have already gone to a clinic over the swelling and pain (on Saturday), and have eardrops for that -- this set me back $180 because I haven't gotten my insurance card yet for the benefits I'm supposed to be getting

• And right now, I feel stuck in this sort of limbo where I have absolutely no idea what the correct path to take is, I've already had to go through one day of working without sleeping at all (that was last Monday) and one day of working through wearing my headset over the swollen ear anyway (Friday), and I think the latter made my problems worse

• And the added stress from worrying about all of this combined has just made it that much harder for me to calm down and rest; and I don't know what to do and aaaaaaaaaaa**