@KS .The text in the image I attach by Spanish cartoonist Ernesto Rodera translates to English as "to see if I was depressed my psychologist asked me did I see a pyramid or a hole- how do I tell him I only see the trick?" https://soc.ialis.me/media/sY1NrWtKcjMzGwqnWL0 2 things I read in your post
: not all good things can be rationalized
: not all good things are significant.
& while i am tooting... I reckon you know that you have done things which are good and the tone of your toot suggests you are not dwelling on the significance of the bad things you might have done. So... on the right track...or at least not on a completely wrong one. I think it is better to be told countless times you have done good & find it irrational yet still come across on social media at least as not truly a monster than to be counting the times you were rationally told you did bad.