Stressed so much about work, the vacation, and seemingly being unable to get time off when I need it the most
I have not taken a vacation in almost two years and even then it was a very hurried "take flight, spend Thanksgiving day with grandparents and relatives, take flight back next day"
And yet I still have trouble with this
I just want to spend some time with the people that matter to me the most and why the fuck do I have to _worry about my job_ because of it
Although to be honest, if it comes to the point that I actually have to choose between vacation and job, the stress this is giving me combined with the near-thanklessness and the vile shit I have to put up with from our clientele is making me heavily lean towards quitting.