isn't it just lovely how the same day I start planning a good old vacation, things suddenly get worse and turn me into a panicking wreck
I am pretty sure that my current job has heavily damaged my hearing (as would be expected for wearing a headset and getting loud noises blasted in my ear for eight hours a day) but I can't leave and even if I did no one would be stupid enough to hire me anyway
hell, just moments ago I was panicking hard enough to physically hurt myself in pure desperation, to do something, whether it was to pass out from sheer pain or brute-force fix whatever stupid problem I have that's causing the infernal noise to play on repeat in my ear
I'd probably have kept doing it, too, if I didn't realize quickly that it wasn't going to help either of those things