mh-∞, self-harm Show more
hell, just moments ago I was panicking hard enough to physically hurt myself in pure desperation, to do something, whether it was to pass out from sheer pain or brute-force fix whatever stupid problem I have that's causing the infernal noise to play on repeat in my ear
I'd probably have kept doing it, too, if I didn't realize quickly that it wasn't going to help either of those things
mh-∞ Show more
isn't it just lovely how the same day I start planning a good old vacation, things suddenly get worse and turn me into a panicking wreck
I am pretty sure that my current job has heavily damaged my hearing (as would be expected for wearing a headset and getting loud noises blasted in my ear for eight hours a day) but I can't leave and even if I did no one would be stupid enough to hire me anyway
I need somebody to just ... talk to, right now. But everybody here is asleep, and rightfully so.
hey look, it's me, still up after trying to sleep almost two hours ago, who can't fall asleep because his tinnitus is aggravated badly enough now to be louder than the white noise from my phone a foot away from me
ughhh I could use help getting out of bed
alternatively, snuggles so I don't have to get out of bed
hi, I'm not feeling so hot tonight
Ableism (Twitter link) Show more
Oh my god this sums up chronic conditions so well... Having to force yourself to present well to fit into society, which makes people go "clearly there's nothing wrong with you"
My mother did this for ages. She never had any clue how I felt at any point and assumed everything was fake, and it's instilled a constant worry of "what if I am faking it" in me
I did actually buy the transparent dark green Joycons, by the way. I think they'll look cool.
The Grand Tour Show more
(I know this is a touchy subject so I'll keep it under CW.)
Oh, they're on the second season now? I wonder if they've polished off the rough edges by this point. The trio's first season of Top Gear was also kinda rough, but it quickly improved once they got settled in, so...
I'm debating getting this or something similar as a Christmas gift to myself.
Dark green with chips, board, etc. stuff showing through pretty well matches my aesthetic.
I am beaming you all hugs from work
Minor accomplishments: I can reliably work the clasps on a bra from behind my back, finally. Don't need to spin it around to put it on or take it off anymore
... oh. well. I found the source for SignPrintf.
... I wonder how many people know what SignPrintf *was* at this point.
I was supposed to finish my portfolio today, but writing it is so hard for me...
Am I going to have to switch back to Firefox proper with its hideous new UI just to get things working right? It seriously looks like it.