Kaito / Katie Sinclaire @KS@is.a.qute.dog

Sorry if I worried anyone this morning

Things go downhill fast when I start to panic

so I just continue to sit here writing my thoughts out, into the æther for all I know, hoping that it does something

hell, just moments ago I was panicking hard enough to physically hurt myself in pure desperation, to do something, whether it was to pass out from sheer pain or brute-force fix whatever stupid problem I have that's causing the infernal noise to play on repeat in my ear

I'd probably have kept doing it, too, if I didn't realize quickly that it wasn't going to help either of those things

so meanwhile I sit here at 7am unable to sleep despite trying for hours, when I still have to work today and probably wind up damaging my hearing more for all I know

but I can't get away from it, and realizing that makes me panic so hard

isn't it just lovely how the same day I start planning a good old vacation, things suddenly get worse and turn me into a panicking wreck

I am pretty sure that my current job has heavily damaged my hearing (as would be expected for wearing a headset and getting loud noises blasted in my ear for eight hours a day) but I can't leave and even if I did no one would be stupid enough to hire me anyway

I need somebody to just ... talk to, right now. But everybody here is asleep, and rightfully so.

hey look, it's me, still up after trying to sleep almost two hours ago, who can't fall asleep because his tinnitus is aggravated badly enough now to be louder than the white noise from my phone a foot away from me

Looks like me and @Raspberryfloof are heading out to San Fran on March 20th and staying the week, probably going to look into going to the side events surrounding GDC but not the actual conference itself, since I think it's not worth the money unfortunately

(paging @Triplefox)

ughhh I could use help getting out of bed

alternatively, snuggles so I don't have to get out of bed

hi, I'm not feeling so hot tonight

https://twitter.com/annieelainey/status/941392361216716800

Oh my god this sums up chronic conditions so well... Having to force yourself to present well to fit into society, which makes people go "clearly there's nothing wrong with you"

My mother did this for ages. She never had any clue how I felt at any point and assumed everything was fake, and it's instilled a constant worry of "what if I am faking it" in me

I did actually buy the transparent dark green Joycons, by the way. I think they'll look cool.

(I know this is a touchy subject so I'll keep it under CW.)

Oh, they're on the second season now? I wonder if they've polished off the rough edges by this point. The trio's first season of Top Gear was also kinda rough, but it quickly improved once they got settled in, so...

https://www.etsy.com/listing/566538119/limited-edition-clear-jungle-green-joy

...

I'm debating getting this or something similar as a Christmas gift to myself.

Dark green with chips, board, etc. stuff showing through pretty well matches my aesthetic.

I am beaming you all hugs from work

Steam cuts off Bitcoin sales, for obvious reasons...

A bunch of people throwing a fit in the comments and also suggesting their favorite altcoin...

And then, there's this: https://is.a.qute.dog/media/XVgoKI5HsMjfyAwHm7Q

Minor accomplishments: I can reliably work the clasps on a bra from behind my back, finally. Don't need to spin it around to put it on or take it off anymore

... oh. well. I found the source for SignPrintf.

... I wonder how many people know what SignPrintf *was* at this point.

http://portfolio.qute.dog/

Mostly got my portfolio in order... still needs some looks over before I'm comfortable with it though x-x